Elder Millennial Musings

I always do this. I get really excited about a project, I jump in head first, and then I promptly just…stop.

It’s not for lack of interest or desire, but more so, it’s a complete lack of discipline. I just can’t seem to get it together to do anything for a sustained period of time (work and parenting not included because the consequences of quitting either would be no bueno).

I used to think that discipline was something you either had or you didn’t. Then I started listening to podcasts and reading books and watching YouTube videos of people telling me that it simply wasn’t true that discipline is an immutable trait. You can develop it and strengthen it, like a muscle.

Well, guess what? I don’t have any of those either. And do you know why? Because I don’t have the discipline to go to the gym consistently enough to build those.

But, I also hear from these “experts” that the process isn’t linear and falling off the proverbial wagon is part of the whole experience. The trick, they say, is starting again. Not giving up. Getting back on that horse!

I won’t bore you with what I’ve been up to since my last post. Suffice to say, in the last month and a half, I’ve eaten more than my fair share of Tate’s chocolate chip cookies and spent more time horizontal than is recommended for any human. But, yesterday I decided enough was enough. The people on the YouTubes are right. It’s about getting back up when you fall down. So…back to the early wake ups, the gym, the meditation, and…this blog. I’m back. Hello, horse.

Will I give up again? The Magic 8 ball says, almost certainly. But I’m going to try my best. Because writing is fun, and getting into a “flow state” – like chicken soup – is good for the soul.

You might be thinking, that’s great, Natalia. But what am I supposed to get out of this post? What is the point of this rant? Honestly, there isn’t one. I just needed to take the first step, and I won’t apologize for wasting your time. Because love means never having to say you’re sorry.

Hope you’re ready for the next episode.